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    This is the miscellaneous part of my blogs, it’s mostly my thoughts on an entry Alice has placed in her journal.

     P.S. This is my last blog about the book Go Ask Alice

     There is always at least one paragraph in every story that brings the whole book together and worthwhile to read. The thing about this book is that it lays everything out on the line and Alice is never once afraid to explain how she is feeling in that moment of time. She says the things that your mother would even be embarrassed to read, but they are the topics that everyone always has questions about. Alice is so levelheaded when she’s off drugs that she could really make something of herself if she actually got some major help.

     “Let somebody else think for us and do for us and act for us. Let them build the roads and the cars and the houses, run the lights and the gas and the water and the sewers. We’ll just sit here on our blistering tails with our minds exploding and our hands out. God, I sound like a goddamn Establishmentarian, and I haven’t even got pills to take the taste out of my mouth or drive the bull shit thoughts away.”  ~Alice pg. 114 from the book Go Ask Alice

     This is a pretty shocking entry that she writes because it’s sparked by the controversy down in California about war and peace. I just don’t understand why she can’t see how she is acting and how messed up she is on the inside. No offence Alice but you are such an idiot…well i guess that’s a pretty contradicting statement but so is Alice. During her book sometimes she says that she wants to get off drugs and have a normal life but two entries later she’s talking how incredible amazing it is to be high. What a loser! How could she not see all the trouble she was causing for her family and loved ones? Her grandpa died through out the this huge ordeal…was it her fault or just coincidence?

Anonymous. Go Ask Alice.New York:Simon Pulse, 1971

  This is my setting blog about the book Go Ask Alice. 

  I always new that it’s really important to live in a loving and caring home especially when you are starting to grow up. Alice grew up in a nice town with a great, loving family. But when things started changing in her life she started changing dramatically. She’s a teenager and trust me it’s not easy to be with parents for long amounts of time without getting into a disagreement. The tables start to turn even more when they have to move to a new city and she has to start all over finding friends. It’s extremely tough especially when Alice doesn’t have very much self confidence and is very shy.

     “I’m partly somebody else trying to fit in and say the right things and do the right thing and be in the right placeand wear what everbody else is wearing. Sometimes I think we’re  all trying to be shadows of each other, trying to buy the same records and everything even if we don’t like them. Kids are like robots, off an assembly line, and I don’t want to be a robot!”    ~Pg. 11 December 10 quote from alice

      Things get worse at home so she decides to spend time with her grandparents because she gets along better with them than her own parents. Oh course she gets bored at her grandpa’s and grandma’s house so she decides to hang out with these “nice girls”.  These “friends” of hers spike her drink with LSD…yeah it’s a pretty hardcore drug compared to the softer, first use drugs. Drugs are the cause of a lot of problems today, yesterday, and probably tomorrow. Thanks to this little detail added to her coke she loved the sensation of feeling high. Alice fell into the pit of drugs and sooner or later she was either going to be addicted to drugs or going to be caught. Well she sadly became stupidly addicted. She was so uninformed about drugs and pretty much the world around her that she didn’t even know what drugs would do to her family and even herself. I don’t understand why the school system back then didn’t teach D.A.R.E. or anything else about drugs, it was a big hit then and now. Well the saddest part about her life now is that she hurt her family in a way she has never done in her life before. Her parents don’t she how her attitude is changing and how she’s so addicted. The signs are all there right out in the open and they don’t even see anything because it’s their little girl Alice, she could never do anything that horrible. Then she starts getting the idea “I can try everything once, right..” attitude and she start doing: heroine, uppers, tranquilizers, dexies, and hearts to name a few. She went to the Doctor for sleeping pills and they didn’t give her the high she needed so she went back for tranquilizers…OK parents and doctors this is a major thing and they don’t even ask any questions about it either which is really strange. She runs away a few times and they take her back over and over again and don’t even put her in a program for addicts, maybe they don’t want to even think that their little Alice is drugged up or they think she can do it by herself. I think that if they really loved her like they say they would at least get her help. Drugs are addictive for a reason and it takes a little more humph to get off them compared to doing the whole cold turkey thing with smoking. I feel like I’m the one who knows how to fix the problem and they are just sitting ducks waiting for an explosion to go off.

Anonymous. Go Ask Alice.New York:Simon Pulse, 1971

 This is the post part or my blog including the epilouge of the story.

    Why does she have to die? Why isn’t her story known to every teenager and why does this girl have to struggle so hard in her life just to lose it in the end? This book changed my life in a way no other book has. I want to make something important out of my life instead of blowing it on drugs and becomming addicted . I need to try to make the best out of my life with what I’m givin. Before my life ends I want ti know that I at least made a difference in the world.
In the end she really tryed to turn her life around; she just got out of phsyc ward and she needs a change. She is always wanting to change her life in the right direction in her diary. This feeling happends many times and then randomly she runs aways you can tell this because the date in the book is a question mark. She can never keep her life strait no matter how hard she tries. As a reader I should have knkown that this book wouldn’t have a nice, cozy ending. The twist that gives it away is in her last entry when she has the feeling to get back on track once again and hopefully make a full recovery, but in a nutshell the ending is still a cliffhanger because no problems are really solved. But there is an epilouge which usually tells the next step of the saga but in this case it says something completely different:
     “The subject of this book died three weeks later after the desision not to keep another diary…Was it accidental overdose? A premediated overdose? No one knows, and in some ways that question isn’t important. What must be of concern is that she died, and that she was only one of thousands of drug deaths that year.” ~Epilouge of Go Ask Alice
     This hurts me in a way because I fell like I connected to this story and they are just dissing her by calling her statistic. Isn’t her story important too?

Anonymous. Go Ask Alice.New York:Simon Pulse, 1971

    Today I am explaining the character in the book Go Ask Alice.  

    What makes a person? Is is their moral beliefs, the people who influence their lives, like parents and friends, or is it their desisions they make down the path of life? What happends if they are influenced in the wrong way and lead astray? Is their any hope of having a normal life if you make one mistake…The challenges we face in this game of life will either make us or break us, it’s up to the person to decide their fate. In the beginning Alice was a young, and naive girl that was uninformed about the world. It was too bad because nobody told her about the real world. Maybe then it wouldn’t have lead to her downfall. Durring her story she bounced form one guy to the other always feeling like she could never measure up and unconfident.

     “Why can’t we just be ourselves and have everyone except us the wya we are? Why can’t I just be me as I am now and not have to consentrate and fume and get upsetabout my past and my future. I hate never knowing whether tomorrow I’m going to have Jan and Marcie and all the rest on my back, sometimes I wish I had never been born.”       ~Alice, page 208 in the book Go Ask Alice

Because of the different influences in her life she became addicted to drugs. Even though she denies it the affects of drugs contradicts her statements. They screw up her whole way of life. The effects are the loss of her family, her good friends, grandparents, and her first love. How they ever forgave her for running away consecutive times and using drugs is beyond me.

     “It’s  strange that when something happends to me Dad always leaves everything in the whole world and comes. I think that if he were a peace mission involving all humanity in all of the galaxies he would leave to come to me. He loves me!”  

~Alice page 115-116 in the book Go Ask Alice

If she didn’t make the choices that she did maybe her life would have been the complete opposite…or maybe not, but thats a consequence all people have to take when rolling the dice in the game of life.

Anonymous. Go Ask Alice.New York:Simon Pulse, 1971